Sippers, as you know, I had a big birthday this year. I turned 40 and am at a crossroads. Sorry for the depressing post, but I am reaching out to see if I am the only one who is having these feelings. I have always been the kind of person who is not good at living each day as it comes. I have always anticipated endings and what’s next. I assume it is a coping mechanism of sorts. Each kid’s birthday saddens me because it is one last year that they will be living at home. I am obsessed with watching teenagers and pregnant people who have yet to experience many of life’s great moments. Of course, I recognize that I could have another 40+ years to live- my Grandma is 95 and thriving! But, when I think back to all of the milestones that I dreamt about as a little girl, I feel sad because I have experienced the majority of those moments. I turned 13, got my period, had my first kiss, got my driver’s license, fell in love for the first time, attended prom, graduated high school, became a legal drinker, graduated college, got my first job, got my first promotion, got married, turned thirty, got pregnant, and most recently, turned 40. I feel like I am on the denouement….. The rational side of me knows that it is wrong to feel this way. However, the nostalgic part of me is struggling. Even Miss Lemonaid can be Debbie Downer. So here the planner in me sits, attempting to understand and exit this slump. Somebody suggested that I read PASSAGES by Gail Sheehy. The irony is that the book is over 30 years old and can not be read electronically. I will start with the section titled “The Forlorn 40′s.”
I feel for you.Of all my bd’s 40 hit me the most.I could give you all sorts of goody things but you are such a pecial person with so much hitting you people will have a hard time feeling your sorrow.
Make 2 lists 1 that is the negatives and 1 the positives.Trust me.The sadness will go bye bye as you have so much going for you.